How beautiful my friend’s words were to me, as the Holy Spirit laid it on her heart to remind me that not only am I loved by my Lord, but I am fully known as well.
“I’m fully known and loved by You
You won’t let go no matter what I do
And it’s not one or the other
It’s hard truth and ridiculous grace
To be known fully known and loved by You
I’m fully known and loved by You”
Lyrics by ~Tauren Wells~
For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for welfare and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope. Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me, when you seek me with all your heart. ~Jeremiah 29:11-13~
Job is the homophone for job. What this tells me is that Job had a job to do. Though he was a faithful servant of God, God wasn’t done writing his story. He wanted to bless his life in inexplicable more ways. And I say more because Job had so much already.
Job stood the test, endured the suffering, and was blessed immeasurably more than he could ever imagine.
Think about it…how do you respond when your life has fallen in the pit of destruction, spiraling out of control?
Is your initial response to Look Up Child or to give in?
Job could have easily thrown in the towel and cursed God and die like his friends told him to, but he knew that he served a Good Good Father who allowed him to experience the pain of being in the valley so He could, in His timing, give Job that mountaintop experience.
My friends, I’m here to support you and love on you and tell you…
Don’t give up…Look Up!
Don’t give in, be spiritually fed from within!
Live like, Fear You Don’t Own Me because faith IS your story!
Grace got you my friend! No matter how hopeless things might seem, you climb to that mountaintop daily to be recharged and Reboot so that you are able to fight past that sadness, pain, disease, loneliness, depression, abandonment, suicidal thoughts, anger, divorce, etc. as though you are a Champion for Christ!
Too many times we go through valley experiences and we think, certainly this must be an attack on our lives from Satan, when in actuality, God allowed it.
“Simon, Simon, behold, Satan demanded to have you, that he might sift you like wheat, but I have prayed for you that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned again, strengthen your brothers.” ~Luke 22:31-32~
In another instance in the Bible, we read that Satan came in the presence of the Lord, after roaming back and forth to the earth, probably to reek havoc. Notice what the Lord said to him, “Have you considered my servant Job…?”
“Now there was a day when the sons of God came to present themselves before the Lord, and Satan also came among them. The Lord said to Satan, “From where have you come?” Satan answered the Lord and said, “From going to and fro on the earth, and from walking up and down on it.” And the Lord said to Satan, “Have you considered my servant Job, that there is none like him on the earth, a blameless and upright man, who fears God and turns away from evil?” Then Satan answered the Lord and said, “Does Job fear God for no reason? Have you not put a hedge around him and his house and all that he has, on every side? You have blessed the work of his hands, and his possessions have increased in the land. But stretch out your hand and touch all that he has, and he will curse you to your face.” And the Lord said to Satan, “Behold, all that he has is in your hand. Only against him do not stretch out your hand.” So Satan went out from the presence of the Lord.” ~Job 1:6-22~
It’s so much easier to blame it all on Satan and think that he orchestrates every bad thing to happen in our lives. Yet, I’m not saying that all our sufferings are directly caused by God either, but the truth is that we serve a sovereign God, and NOTHING passes through His hands without His control.
But he said to her, “You speak as one of the foolish women would speak. Shall we receive good from God, and shall we not receive evil?” In all this Job did not sin with his lips. ~Job 2:10~
Going back for my follow up visit to get the results of my CT scan, surely I had hoped to hear that those three nodules had gone away. However, that wasn’t the case. Not only are they still very much there, but there is an interval increase in peritoneal carcinomatosis. The images show that there are representative soft tissue in the anterior left mid hermiabdomen measuring 5.1 x 1.6 cm as well as representative conglomerate soft tissue in the anterior right upper quadrant measuring 3.0 x 2.9 cm. There is also an enlarging soft tissue nodule in the subcutaneous tissues overlying the anterior abdominal wall in the midline upper abdomen measuring 1.0 cm, previously 0.6 cm. And finally, trace free fluid in the pelvis, similar to prior.
I would have loved to hear those three words, “They are gone!” but that wasn’t the case. So what do I cling to in the midst of this new revelation and my journey back to the chemo suite?
Well…I’ll tell yah!
Those three words, “I’m Born Again!”
That’s right! That’s where my hope comes from. Knowing that I’m born again, washed by the water I’m clean.
I’m reminded time and time again that I’m commanded by scripture “that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.” ~John 16:33~
So like my friend’s letter reminds me, that my God loves me, He made me, He knows me, and I am His and He is mine. I am fully known by Him and there is nothing through this cancer journey that I will have to go through that my God’s righteous right hand isn’t in control of.
Be blessed and be reminded that God IS in control!
I would like to dedicate this post to a sweet friend and former student of mine. Reminding her that as she journeys down this road of heartache and sadness, continue to be strong in the Lord. I know it is so hard right now to see through the tears, how the Lord can use all your trials and turn them into triumphs, but find encouragement in Psalm 56:8 that the heartache you are experiencing is fully known by our Lord and they don’t go unnoticed. Not only will He bottle your teardrops, He will one day wipe away every tear from your eyes.
“You have kept count of my tossings; put my tears in your bottle. Are they not in your book?” ~Psalm 56:8~
God sees past your pain and will comfort your heart. ❤️